In the past few weeks I have seen a lot of girls I went to high school within public. I was never really popular, and didn’t have many friends either. There were a few people that I was close to, but those friendships came and went. Now I don’t talk to any of the girls from my high school, even the two girls I once called my best friends. Our lives just merged on to on different lanes and the plans that we made for our futures together were canceled by God’s plan.
Anyway, the girls I’ve been seeing around from high school are the same one’s I used to compare myself too all the time. They were the pretty, popular girls. The girls with pretty hair, perfect bodies, the nicest clothes and the hottest boyfriends. I was always the shy wall flower and never thought I could measure up to their beauty. But recently, the same girls I’ve been seeing behind the shadows of public walls, are looking so tired and worn out! Their luster is faded, and their countenances reflect the gloom that hover over them like dark rainy storm clouds. As I glance at them, secretly from a far, I wonder what happened to the pretty blossoming flowers that I once saw spreading the scent of their beauty throughout the halls?
I shared this same thought with my dad, and to my surprise he answered my curiosity. He said to me that the gloom that covers them is the sin that reflects their life styles. They have worries that I don’t. Even though we share the same age, we live completely different lives. They might be working hard just trying to make ends meet, they might even be single moms or could even be having problems in their personal lives; who knows what other stresses may apply! These are just some scenarios that my dad tossed out there, but honestly, any of it could be true. The point is that they’re not serving the Lord. My dad then pointed out how blessed I am. He said that my countenance radiates light and that my youth translates the age of one who is five years younger than mine. I don’t have the need to work, I don’t have the stress of studying while raising kids, and I don’t have the head ache of carrying the heavy load of a dead beat guy on my shoulders. This is all because I am living my life separated for Jesus Christ.
I’ve been seriously thinking about these girls for the past few weeks, and now, what my dad said to me today. I’ve been thinking about the differences between me and those girls and the time that has passed. What would my life have been like if I never chose to get off on the exit where hopelessness meets the Light of Life? Maybe I would have ended up the same way. It’s possible by the way I was headed. Don’t get me wrong. I’m not anyone to say that I’m better than those girls, because I’m not. Only God knows what they might be going through, but I do thank God that I don’t share the worldly anxieties of my peers; or any anxieties for that matter.
Now I’m just living my life as a single college student, growing everyday in my relationship with God. I may not have many of the things that I desire to have now, like friends, a boyfriend, a social life.. haha okay, that sounds so sad. But honestly, I don’t need any of those things in this season of my life right now because I have Jesus and He has greater plans in store for me. I know that God’s timing has purpose and every relationship brought my way will be edifying and beneficial for both ends of the relationship(s). So I thank God for reminding me where He delivered me from, and showing me that He has me cocooned in the palm of His hands. I’m not missing out on a single good thing, and for that I can rest peacefully. Thank you Jesus.
“Charm is deceptive and beauty is fleeting but; but a woman who fears the Lord is to be praised.” Proverbs 31:30